This is a compilation of my journey -- the daily walks and my countless talks...

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Leaving and Living





I have to leave in order to live...

I just feel a little sad today, knowing that I'll be leaving two days from now. It pains me to leave my best friend in the middle of her emotional crisis, though I know it's a battle she needs to fight on her own. It sucks to leave the job that gave me more than a handful of friends - some are true and some are not. Good thing is, I learned a lot. It hurts to leave my family because I know they will miss me. I can bear my own heartaches but not the suffering of my family. It frustrates me to leave the city where my heart is, where I grew up and which I would really miss...

But all of these should be endured so I can live again. I had more than my share of distrustful friends, whom I loved so much...and I adored too much. I had more than bad lucks and misfortunes that an average girl should have. It seemed like I'm a magnet for such.  

Two days from now, I will be under the same sky but will be looking at a different horizon. I'll leave all my troubles behind and chase new dreams.  I'll make new friends while keeping those which I treasure since forever . I know that I'll get hurt the same way I've been hurt and I'll trust again, but this time I'll be smarter more than you could ever thought so.  I have a lot of things to regret, a lot of things to learn. I was really hurt and I still am. I guess this is what life really is. I don't have to stop, I just have to start again.

Needless to say, I am leaving not because I want to escape, but because I want to breathe and I need to live.

7 comments:

  1. I agree beybi.. I ma tired and bored. I wanan go somewhere too beybi..

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  2. i also experience that at times. that feeling when you really want to go far away and just breathe. hope you'll feel better. just be optimistic, and life will go smoothly :)

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    1. hey pretty! thanks! it surely did and i'm crossing fingers for luck! thanks for dropping by :DD

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  3. wow, sounds like you're beginning a great journey. hope you keep us posted

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